Changing from the Inside Out

The Easy Way (feels lazy even!)

How do we make positive change in our lives? New Year's Resolutions seem to be the epitome of trying to make a life change. A mental commitment that can last week and if we are lucky maybe months, but usually falls away. We research, hear things, try to make good decisions. I will lose weight! Cut all carbs. Stop gluten and sugar. But then articles come out called, "Everything You Know about Obesity is Wrong" and you are back to the drawing board. Or a holiday hits and you lose your motivation.

I have been on the "doing" side of making change most of my life. What can I do to improve? This worked better before I had kids. I had more time, energy and disclipline to make what I considered good habits. But since kids, creating change in my life has just felt like another burden on my endless "to do" list. It has been overwhelming because I really don't need another thing to do, and when I started making changes it would just drive my anxiety up. Not at all helpful.

And yet, we all do need resets. So how does this occur without adding the pressure of another thing to do? 

It is happening, as if magically now. I am observing it in my own life and in others' lives. It is a change that is occurring inside, organically, and moves into our outside reality. It is part of the healing I see collectively right now, the movement into our wholeness, our Establishment in Self.

This is a new noticing for me, so it is an exploration as I write and live moment to moment. But what the observing is, is that as I pay attention to something, over time it manifests in my life. It is called, "tracking" or "paying attention" or "giving something time." It is part of our mystical natures. The ability to bring things in from the etheric world (unseen) into matter and form.

What "tracking" looks like is paying attention to what pings you, what catches your attention? Like a word, an image, a name, a goddess, a feeling...  I then google it and see where the journey takes me. I like to take screenshots with my phone and start watching as I move through time what arises to add to something I am paying attention to. Following the threads.

Time always catches my attention. Feeling like I never have enough. And yet I want to live in the moment, making my days marked and meaningful. I have always wanted ritual and routine. So I pay attention to how time moves in the day, what I give time to and what I feel like I don't have time for. More and more I make time for tracking these new threads, what is pinging me, and giving them a place in my life.

A few years ago, I started hearing about the importance of first-morning sun on our eyeballs to reset our circadian rhythm (the internal rhythm of our bodies). People studied it and realized it was essential for waking our system, putting us in rhythm with the day (time), resetting hormones, even cleansing the blood. Supposedly, six minutes of sun gazing in the first morning's light cleanses our entire blood volume. The eyes are windows into our physiology.

I had patients telling me of how every morning they got up and sat outside in the sun, sun gazing (which is a little tricky as we are not supposed to look directly into the sun!) and even sitting naked from the waist up. Then they get the sun not only in their eyes, but on the skin for extra benefit. That sounded chilly to me and un-doable with my kids and morning demands. But I increasingly loved the idea of greeting the sun and getting that circadian rhythm reset. That made sense. I could feel the memory of welcoming the sun in my bones, like an ancestral memory wanting to be re-awakened.

As time went by, I just would observe that I was noticing the first light of the day. I began welcoming it, even if from bed. As more time went by, I realized it was no big deal to step outside for a minute and gaze at it and welcome the day. Or even from inside my window. I am a sun worshipper by nature. 

Now I am noticing my body asks for the morning light, those first rays. I am not up to six minutes, but I take the pressure off myself for that as the marker of success. I am not interested in being naked out there in the freezing cold. But what I have noticed is that some sun salutations have naturally arisen as I greet the sun. Not daily, often not full-body sun salutations (yoga practice), but at least a lifting of my arms and welcoming the light into my life. Feeling gratitude for the sun in its constancy and support of life.

I have other "changes" that are occurring from within and would posit that it is actually a collective event that as our inner beings are awakening and our outer natures are reflecting the inner change. What I hear from my patients is, "I am not where I was before 2020. I am in a new territory and I am not sure what it is, but I am ok with that. What I know is that I am not going back."

Are you feeling these new threads of yourself awakening? Are you feeling things come more naturally, the changes you want to see in your life with less effort? More organically?

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